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Thinking more about spouses and coming out to them November 25, 2008

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In a previous post, I made the statement “Spouses have the hardest road to travel when a spouse comes out”.  This is something I’d love to talk about for a moment, from a trans-person’s point of view (and it sort-of ties into another recent posting, “I’m Still Me”).  (Note: when I say “she” in what follows, it’s my own experience coloring this.)

When you come out to your wife/spouse/girlfriend after years of hiding, it’s a huge change for them.  So few people consider gender identity as anything other than tied to physical characteristics (okay, genitalia).  Your spouse probably has no idea what this means.  What your spouse needs is some time to understand this – not an infinite amount, but maybe a few weeks or a couple of months.

Realize that one of the things that will be hard is that she will probably not feel comfortable using her usual support system.  Most of them will have the same reference point as she does, but they will lack the direct connection to you that she has.  So you become the sole support system here.  She will want to talk with you about this, and that will be hard for you.  It’s not easy to start talking about this after years of keeping it under wraps, especially if you haven’t prepared to come out.

That’s okay.  What’s important is you start communicating.  Just be sensitive to her, and don’t get angry (hard) or frustrated (harder) or impatient (hardest).  She’s got trust issues and a lot of fear.  Is the marriage over?  Does it mean that you are gay, or that she might be gay?

When you come out, realize that if she has any reference points about this, it’s what she’s seen in the media – films, television, books, or the news.  Most of the media references often discuss transgender people as having made a “lifestyle choice” or something of that ilk, as if it’s yet another option for your life like whether you bring your own lunch to work or buy it at the cafeteria.  I know a lot of us would love it to be a choice (I used to be that way).

Another representation is common in movies – the crazed/psychopathic cross-dresser (think “Psycho”, “Dressed to Kill” or “Silence of the Lambs”).  Thankfully, this is usually easy to overcome, but it puts us on the defensive.

Another representation is the trans-person who preys on unsuspecting straight men or the transgender hooker (think of films like “Bachelor Party” or when transgender people are shown in current TV shows like “Law and Order” and “CSI”).  This is a lot harder to get around, because to many people sex and gender are tied together in one big knot. (And while there are statistics that say the majority of transgendered people are hetrosexual cross-dressers, even if true, group statistics don’t apply to individual situations).

And, finally, there’s the fetish dresser portrayal.  Let’s be honest – there ARE fetish dressers who get a thrill out of being cross-dressed when they have sex.  That might even be you.  The image of these people in the media is as perverts or wierdos, however, and it’s sad.  While this isn’t my “flavor” of transgenderism, what bothers me here is that it says a lot more about our society’s sexual and moral hang-ups than anything about the cross-dresser’s preferences or desires.  What’s wrong is that the dresser keeps it under wraps from the person they chose to spend their life with, because they’ve been made to think it makes them less of a person or is bad.

Back to your spouse – remember, she’s going through a lot.  She needs you to be at your best – caring, sensitive, loving.

Letter to a Wife November 21, 2008

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From Helen Boyd’s Blog: Letter to a Wife

Spouses have the hardest road to travel when a spouse comes out, especially after years of hiding and denial.  I wish there was some way for spouses to be able to find one another easily, so that more could share how they cope with the situation.

(And a plug for Helen’s efforts here – in addition to running her site, she also has a separate online group that she runs for spouses of transgendered people.  Even though I cannot join, I know how important this is.  Thanks, Helen!)

“I’m still me” November 8, 2008

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“I’m still me” is one of the most common phrases we say when we come out to our wives after keeping it a secret.  What we’re trying to do is communicate how we feel we are still the same inside even though we are telling them a big secret about ourselves.  What we’re trying to communicate is how we feel inside of us.  We know we are the same person – we’re just being honest.  Now you know everything, we think.

But think about it.  We may feel the same inside, but this is a big change for our spouse.  Our society ties sex and gender so tightly together that people don’t think about it.  By coming out as transgendered we are taking what people thought was an axiom in their logic system and showing them that we think it’s a theory, and an incorrect or incomplete one, at that.  It’s out of the understanding of many people because they don’t think about it.

To our spouse (or kids or parents or whoever) we’re different now.  It might be how we dress or look, or starting to live as a woman (or man), but they don’t see us as the same.  “I’m still me” rings hollow, and saying it could actually be interpreted as a lie said to calm instead of being truthful about ourselves.  It’s rare that they buy it.

Why did we come out?  Did we want to “come to honesty”?  Was it us trying to integrate all aspects of our lives?  Do we want to transition?  Or is there some other reason?  And now that we’ve come out, how will our relationship change?  How will coming out change us?  Change you?

Maybe you still feel the same – that you are still you – but things have changed now, and how our spouse reacts will cause us to change more.  It’s like time – time is always moving into the present, not the future or past, but the present always changes.

Yes, you are still you, but you are a different you.

Congratulations, President Elect Obama! And more… November 5, 2008

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This is a great day for America, with a small asterisk.  I am so happy that Barack Obama won the presidential election, and I congratulate him from the bottom of my heart.  I haven’t been so excited in a long time.

Listening to his speech has inspired me.  I’ve decided that I’m going to get back into the blogging spirit here, with a renewed focus on my original goal – discussing the benefits of coming out for transgender people (with a focus on spouses and coming out to your children – yes, I am out to my kids).  I want to move away from the me-orientation of this blog and, instead, write about the real issues, pro and con, on coming out – reasons to come out, ramifications of coming out, etc.  I’m also hoping to interview people about how they decided to come out.

Stay tuned.

(Oh, and the asterisk?  I’m sad about the states where people voted against marriage inclusion and for discrimination against same-sex couples.)

The *New* Coming Out Trans January 18, 2008

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I’ve redone this web site yet again, but this time I hope it will work out better.  I’ve gone to using WordPress as my framework for sharing information.  If you look, you’ll find a lot of the same information is here that was in the old site, just with a better look.  A few changes besides the look and feel:

  •  I’ve moved my blog from Blogger to here, and I’ll also stop posting to my Yahoo! 360 blog (since Yahoo! is shutting that down it’s not a big deal).  The main reason is that I want to have more control over the stuff that I write in my blogs.
  • I can enable others to have accounts here so they can update pages and create blog entries
  • I can have comments on articles and stories (I will be moderating them, but mostly to keep out spam)

This is my third attempt at getting something going here; hopefully the third time’s the charm!  The goal’s still the same – help people who need pointers on coming out as transgendered – but hopefully the execution will be better, more relevant, and easier to read.

Coming out to the kids during a crazy time December 5, 2007

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This is just a quick update to let you all know what I’m up to:

After careful deliberation, my wife and I decided to tell the kids that I am transgendered. I came out to our son over Thanksgiving weekend; I will be coming out to our daughter over the Christmas break. Needless to say that between this, work (which includes travel for work), recovering from a cold and a broken leg (I broke it in early October and it’s pretty much healed up), and the holiday’s I’ve had little to no spare time to do anything (including writing well thought out blogs).

More on this when I get a chance to clear my head (yeah, Tina, like there’s anything up there to clear out LOL…).